I'm thinking about this verse today....
Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody. 1 Thes. 4:11-12 (bold mine)
I certainly have enough to do around here without worrying about anyone else today, Lord. I can read my favorite blogs without getting caught up in the comments section, I can take care of the people inside these walls without burdening myself about how I should be sharing the Gospel with everyone outside of these walls, and I can work. I need to work around here Lord. There is so much to do. Will I ever get caught up? Will I ever get the things that need to be done...done?
I can do all this and know that perhaps my life is winning the respect of outsiders who do not know You. I will be mindful of my example and my life even when I am doing laundry...and dishes...and picking up 476 items off the floor every single day. I will be mindful of the example I am setting for my children as well, as I try to do these things with a good attitude, and a loving heart.
I very well may spend the greater portion of my life standing in my laundry room, and kitchen, and kneeling down running bath water, and reading school work with little ones....
I may never be a foreign missionary
I may never write a best selling book
I may never lead an exciting women's ministry
I don't even know that I want to do those things...it's just that....it feels like the great portion of my life will be spent right here in these 1400 something square feet.
And that is OK. Because You are here with me. And You have chosen to bless me with an amazing husband to help, beautiful little girls to train and love on and teach...my cup is overflowing for sure.
Help me relax, Lord. Help me know that I may NEVER get done. That You may ask me to be here tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that---still doing the same things. Don't get me wrong, Lord. I KNOW how blessed I am. I am THANKFUL to be a homemaker, a wife, a mother, it's just that...
well, why do I feel the need to "get done." Where am I planning to go when all the laundry is folded and put away? What am I planning to do when the kitchen is clean and stays that way for more than 10 minutes? What is it that is so urgent I feel the need to rush through all the "have to dos"? What is it that I could be doing which is more important than taking care of this home and this family?
I really have no idea.
One day things will be different. The girls will grow up. Lord, if you are willing, my husband and I will retire together one day. Things will not stay like this forever.
So I will sing with my children. I will cut their food into funny shapes. I will enjoy Curious George while they still do.
I will iron, and cook, and fold, and clean, and praise Your name.
Most of all, I will quit acting like it's all a big nuisance that is getting in the way of serving You.
Because that's just silly now that I think about it.