I haven't slept well lately. It's probably because my schoolroom is a wreck. I've pulled a bunch of stuff out and everything is all in a jumble on the floor. I never rest well when my classroom is like that. It happened every year that I taught.
Also each year I had a "back to school nightmare." One year the nightmare was that I was driving to school and realized it was the first day of school and I had forgotten to go prepare my classroom. When I showed up there was a room full of students (all ages, from all years I had taught all jumbled together) and me with no copies made, no books on the shelf, nothing.
Another year I dreamed that instead of sending the class to P.E. at 11:30 in the morning, I sent them home. Waved good-bye to everyone on the front porch of the school and got in my car and drove off. Then I realized my mistake and rushed back to school searching out my window for students that I could not locate.
Thankfully, none of those dreams ever actually came true. And I was ever so grateful to wake up! But every year whenever I start working on my classroom, I never sleep well until there is order. Maybe that's why I haven't been sleeping.
Or, maybe it's money concerns. I've been very convicted of our lack of discipline in the area of budgeting and how we haven't been the best stewards of the money we've been given. I'm working on that. Maybe that's why I haven't been sleeping.
Or maybe it's a dozen other little things like how we aren't exactly satisfied in the life we have right now. And how S would really like to be in ministry or missions but how will that come together? We feel so "in between" things right now in a lot of areas. We don't feel settled, I guess. Maybe that's why I haven't been sleeping.
Or, maybe it was the thunderstorms last night and the musical beds we had to play to get the two little girls back to sleep.
Anyway, through all of it one thing remains a firm, constant, solid part of our lives--Jesus Christ. We have a Savior to turn to. No matter what looms on the horizon for our country or our lives...we have a place to turn. A solid rock to cling to. And knowing that makes all the difference.